New Life

I had tried ending my life.

And you might be asking: For what reason?

I thought I lost it all. I had not lived according to what I have dreamed my life should be. I am in a great mess.

I have become jobless. Dreamless. Passionless.

When I saw friends or acquaintances, I hid myself in shame.
I hated the greetings... the usual questions. The "Where have been? What are you up? How have you been doing?" You know... those types of questions.

BecauseI do not have a glamorous reply. I seem to always have the same answers.

My self - esteem had fallen below sea level.

But when I took my eyes off the situation and introspect myself as if I was another person doing the observation, I felt different.

Thank God I lost that job.

That job made me so anxious... made me so insecure. I hated my boss. I hated the work environment. There was no room for self-improvement. But I stuck with it... because I needed money. And what a teeny - weeny amount of money it had only been.

But still, I lost a job. And it hurts.

I allowed myself to grieve. Yes, I cried until it hurts no more.

Then I thank the Lord for it. I thank Him for the liberty... yes, the freedom.

It was the only way to awaken me from a deep sleep.

And now, I am so ready and eager to start a new chapter in my life. A life of my own.

I have a clearer vision now.

This time, I am better, smarter, happier.

And I am learning well.

I thank God I lost that job :).

It was a blessing in disguise after all.